A Dream on Edge - Praveen Rufus - "My Buddy"

A Dream on Edge

Just because of Crying,

Doesn’t Mean I’m Sad,

Doesn’t Mean I’m in Pain

Doesn’t Mean I have gone insane.

You should keep your memories

With a little care,

It means you have a,

Future happiness to share.

There might be a Violence,

It’s all part of War,

Doesn’t mean I don’t care,

Cause a long may come a better life.

A Dream on Edge……

Every road I ever tried was locked,

Every Chord I ever tried to play

What Went Wrong! ….

You just lighten up my life,

With your Little Smile,

I thought you Were Mine,

I thought my life had got a Shine.

I just tried to act Cool,

But, ended up locking like a fool,

I only have my eyes for you,

And I cry, till my eyes drain out of tears…..

A dream on edge….

I just tried to take the heat off me,

O!O! You’re just a pain for me,

And I bleed myself dry for you….

Because dreams on edge waits for no one….

By RUFUS.W

Here I am This is Me, There Is No Where Else On This World I'd Rather Be

Here I am with my two buddies ..... Praveen Rufus and Jayanth
Enjoying working aka hanging together ......

Few patients here and there...

One completely Forsaken P.I.
And a few good colleagues to work with....
They are the only driving force which helps this place to run....

If any of you wanna learn true Clinical Research meaning you gotta be here.....Here they teach you what ....They don't teach in class...

Life Goes On .....On and On and On

As I faintly remember one of my staff during the six month of theory said this line...

"Every Day Is Rarely The Same"

Now I can relate to what it means..Everyday is new day a new experience its like a dream....

Its hard to believe... You go to the same place everyday, and meet the same people whom you work with...But some how feels different.....

Searching my soul and true identity in a world of nothingness...

Its like crying to the void...

Feeling empty....

The excitement lost.. Some friends turning no so friendly...

Some new friends....

Any way I was never lucky with friends no wonder I was raised alone.....

Till this day...I just Wish...... Wish something /someone can help me...

I know it ain't gonna happen...

Still hoping...

After lots of advices from friends and other sources..I just engaged by self to work constantly.. never to think of my loneliness....

I help others when I got no work for myself...

I only wish a true loving soul can help...

Nobody needs my love...

Only thing that's holding me is my parents and hope of finding my missing piece...

I feel like having a Black Hole instead of Heart....

Everything goes inside and still the Hole is empty.....

Bye Bye Oncology , Good Morning Cardiology

Yes after long hours of serious working in Apollo Specialty Teynampet....

I finally get to move to Tondairpet Apollo .....

Well I am miss my newly made friends from there...... I tried to extend my internship there but unfortunately....

My superiors wanted me to gain more experience at various fields of medical science...

So I had to shift from Oncology to Cardiology...
"All's Well Well Ends Well"....

I am hoping that firmly with my fingers crossed...

Along with me all my friends are also shifting places.....

Well Good Luck To All Of Us....

Have A "Happy" Sunday World !!! Oh The Irony Tickles Me.....

All my friends("So as I Say") haven't called me up...few text me.... general forwards only nothing personal.... Guess they are very busy with their internship.....

They seem to find no time for me.... Its not new to me..I spent my whole life with people like this only.....

I messaged a few from "Google Talk" but no response... Good for them... Good for me....

It just goes to show that I am being surrounded by jerks and scumbags.....

I am really sorry I didn't mean to be offensive...
But ask yourself first before you try to scold me... Are you being true to yourself...
Yeah... Judge yourself first..Then Judge me..

Well I know nobody reads this blog...
So if at all you come across it and get angry please call to scold me at least...
I would be happy if you do it.....